Panophobia Chapter 4: Thoughts about Anxiety
So in the past year of not updating this blog, working, and trying to figure out what's going on in my head, I've had a lot of time to think. Think about who I am, what I want, how to get it, and why I am the way I am. I also spent a lot of time coping with my innermost struggles, and this obviously involves my anxiety, because what else am I going to use this blog for, if not discussing my mental health? Anyway, during the year, I've taken to writing down the most common thoughts that spring to mind during panic attacks, or stressful moments, or even when everything's fine but I can still feel the anxiety hiding around the corner. So, here are some extracts from the list of thoughts: Is my vision getting worse, or am I just anxious? Stress headache, again. Fun. Stop thinking about it. Just breathe. Count your heartbeats. Am I actually as terrible as I think I am? Wow, I really dislike myself. I have to stop making jokes about suicide, it makes people un...